Yes, but this type of thing needs to be forced upon me ...or at least done with a veil of force. Otherwise, I'd just avoid the panties altogether. If there is a punishment associated with avoiding them, I'm more susceptible to compliance (which is the entire goal). I'm not very keen on wearing panties in my day to day life - it has always been a behind closed doors type of thing. That refusal to wear them comes from a place of fear. Deep down, I really do want to wear them, I just need a push to do so. With a game that is planned to last a year, I can't have it be super time-consuming in my day to day life. If that happens, I will burn out and stop playing altogether.
Also, the randomness of the game and that type of mental game has always gotten me off. Losing control by forcing myself just slightly out of my comfort zone turns me on like nothing else, even if I am doing it in a safe manner. I love playing this type of super-complicated mental game that contains a little bit of chance, mystery and force.
When I was younger, I had a series of small locks. I would attach the key for the next lock to hasp of each previous lock. So, lock 1 would have the key for lock 2 attached to it, lock 2 would have the key for lock 3 attached to it, etc. The final lock had my house key attached. I used to chain the even locks to a tree on one side of my yard and the odd locks to a tree on the other side of my yard and lock myself outside. I would then have to walk back and forth about 30 times, unlocking a series of boxes along the way in order to gain access to my house. That was very time consuming, as I didn't know which locks went with what keys. I've be very exposed in my back yard while doing this.
I started doing this under the dark of night just wearing panties and a buttplug under my jeans. As I expanded my boundaries, I ended up locking heels onto my feet and wearing a miniskirt and girl's clothing, with a different task to complete contained within each box (assfucking, piss drinking, etc
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